After Thinking...
“Everyone has a plan ‘till they get punched in the mouth.”
I just recently heard this Mike Tyson quote (thanks, Chuck) and it pretty much encapsulates my present season.
Life was rolling along great. New purpose and ministry focus was alive and thriving. People were experiencing the heart of GOD through profound encounters with Him. The rhythm and flow of my life was full, rich, and rewarding. So much was happening that by mid December i was beginning to pull together thoughts that i would share in an early January 2018 Heart Trust post. BUT a stroke that struck me unaware in the early pre-dawn morning of Christmas Eve sort of derailed any plans i had. (Full story below.)
I was not supposed to be in the hospital ruining Christmas for my family. I was not supposed to be the center-of-the-room, top of the social media focus of all you who i hold dear. (Don't get me wrong, i do love being the center of attention periodically, when i have something to say, but NOT this way.) Once home, i was not supposed to be sidelined by something that had me at less than 100% independence, relying on others for food, transportation, and help. I suppose that's pride talking, or ego, or something from my orphan-thinking wounded past.
The crazy thing? This MOUTH PUNCH created a construct where i feel like i'm the most fortunate, most loved man in Cincinnati. That's not hyperbole! I've felt deeply loved and cared for by your intercession and hands-on prayers, by the many meals at my home or in yours or some sweet restaurant. You drove me when i was unable, shoveled snow after it piled up, and even dug a grave in the dark for our beloved dog, Jack. And you continued to partner with me here at The Heart Trust, believing this was a blip not a new baseline. THANK YOU from the very center of my being.
And so, in the midst of this all, i decided to look at the present situation through the lens of my relationship with the LORD. My foundational belief is that GOD is ALWAYS GOOD, He ALWAYS has the best for us, He filters life's experiences in light of our calling, training, understanding.
Because of this belief that He is good, it's my intention to have AFTER thinking during this present process of recovery. What do i mean by AFTER thinking? Rather than being in anxious fear & worry, wondering how it will all turn out, Its having the same mindset i'd have AFTER a process is over, having seen how GOD came through for my best. It's believing in restoration by His presence and relationship. It's having hindsight 20/20 thankfulness thinking while it still feels dark or uncertain. It's being at peace in the storm. It's really believing the words of Psalm 23.
In this time of contemplative reflection, i've experienced a good bit of insight that has brought freedom to my own self. I will be sharing these a few at a time in the near future. Stay tuned.
P.S. Being the head, heart, and body of The Heart Trust, i’ve come to realize how exposed i am to spiritual and natural attacks. I’m looking for people to partner with me in intercession in a very intentional way - by agreeing to purposefully pray for me during a specific period of time each month.
Obviously, i covet your prayers even if you aren't led to join my intercessory team, but if your gifting is intercession and you feel the “yes”, please reach out for more information.